I have felt very convicted...or maybe it's called? Either way, God has spoken. He has made it clear to me that I need to focus on "seeking" Him. The problem is I was having a hard time visualizing what exactly that meant for me. I asked the hubs and a few friends what that meant to them but none of the answers I received satisfied me. Last night I prayed earnestly to the Lord to show me what it meant. I began to look in the bible for uses of the word seek. Finally I came across Psalm 119 and then I knew this is what God meant by leading me to "seek" Him. In case you are not familiar with Psalm 119 it is an acrostic of the Hebrew alphabet. Twenty-two "sections" based on the 22 letters. Believed to be written by King David it focuses on praising God for His Word, for His law, commandments and rules. This is so beautiful to me as the hubs and I have just begin to learn about keeping the festivals and following the Law while living under grace. I don't want to get too far into that here because that is enough to fill a completely different post.
Basically, what I feel God is trying to tell me is to focus on fulfilling His call to me, living a life where HE is truly first, where I follow His outline for a Christian life and not the outline man has made for a Christian life. Actually living out many of the "catch phrase" and over-used verses heard amongst Christians. It's one thing to throw these sayings out there for a quick "pick-me-up, or to say that we do them and it's a whole other thing to actually LIVE them.
Let me leave you with a few verses from Psalm 119:
v. 2 Blessed are those who keep his testimonies, who seek him with their whole heart...
v. 9-10 How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander fro myour commandments!
v. 65-66 You have dealt well with your servant, O Lord, according to your word. Teach me good judgement and knowledge, for I believe in your commandments.
v. 89 Forever, O Lord your word is firmly fixed in the heavens.
v. 103 How sweet are your words to my tasted, sweeter than honey to my mouth!
v . 132 Turn to me and be gracious to me, as is your way with those who love your name.
v. 175 Let my soul live and praise you...
Until next time, may Christ's love and blessings be upon you and yours.