Monday, July 18, 2011

The Blame Game

Amidst my hours and hours of internet research and reading on PCOS, I have found that is very common for infertile women to blame themselves for the problems within their bodies. Until last week, I did not fall among these women. I had my head on my shoulders, knowing for a fact that it was all in God's control, there was nothing I could do to fix the problem and on and on. I was so glad I did not think it was my fault...ugh! I hate when I start to get a haughty attitude! God has a way of handing us over from time to time to our ugly behaviors. About a week or so ago I got clobbered with a big huge rock with the words blame all across it! Wow does it hurt! I can't stop thinking about the fact that if I could just lose some more weight maybe my fertility would come back, if I could eat this way or that maybe it was help me ovulate, maybe if I wasn't so lazy, if I could motivate myself to get off the couch THEN I could have a baby. No matter how hard I try to go back to not feeling any blame it just keeps coming around again and again. I am a huge believer in personal responsibility in all aspects of life but had never accepted any for my current situation. Now it's raining down on me and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to change  all the things that I have control over. I don't know how to get motivated! Even my spiritual life feels dry. This battle is a never ending swim upstream.

My apologies to you women out there who have felt blame and I have perturbedly thought: "Why?" "How could you feel guilty about something you have no control over?" ... Now I know. Now I know.

Until next time, may Christ's love and blessings be upon you and yours.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Soul Cysters Weight Loss Challenge Giveaway

I know all you women out there suffering from PCOS you know how hard weight loss can be. I am going to be entering the Soul Cysters Weight Loss Challenge starting on Aug. 1 Right now Mrs. O's Life is giving away 2 entries into the contest. I am really hoping this will motivate me to drop a few lbs before I start taking (or while I am taking) Clomid. Check out her blog and take the steps to start your own weight loss journey or further the one you have already begun!

Until next time, may Christ's love and blessings be upon you and yours.